Who Knows?

Welcome to the month of July!! We’ve successfully completed the first half of the year! I’m so psyched ‘cos I just started my Internship at Cool FM, Port Harcourt and I’m really looking forward to the experience! I was assigned to the news room and I hope I learn a lot although I could do with stipends which they made sure to remind me that interns don’t get 😪. It’s all about the experience so, fingers crossed.

We’ve all got expectations but sometimes they go wrong. You know that feeling of disappointment? Like, “I was very sure this stuff would turn out like this”, “I don’t understand”. Most times, it’s difficult to pick yourself up and then you tend to blame yourself. It’s a bummer. I know.

I remember when I wrote my first JAMB examination. I was 16 and in SS3. I was so sure that I was getting into UNILAG to study Law. I mean, I wrote JAMB on my birthday that year and I had a great score, 245 to be precise. You can imagine how I felt when the lists (1st to 5th) came out and my name wasn’t there. I mean, the PUTME exams were hard – Maths was involved but my JAMB score had to count for something right?

That year was something else. I was often sad. Sad because I felt that my mates would be ahead of me, that we won’t be on the same level anymore and my friends would find people to replace me. A lot of my friends gained admission that year. I wanted to be happy for them. I really did and I was or at least I tried but it was so hard! I was so disappointed in myself ‘cos I knew I wasn’t dumb or maybe I was. Why didn’t I know maths? I cried a lot that period. I also questioned God a lot but it came to a point that I had to accept that everything happens for a reason and instead of beating up myself, I decided to make something out of it.

Your girl wasn’t going to stay idle and so, I started computer lessons and I had a wonderful tutor. During that time, my dad told me about the Diploma in Law program at UNIPORT so I decided to apply. I tried to combine my computer lessons and the program and it was easy ‘cos the program was part time. But then, I realized something. I didn’t want to study law. The idea of studying Law was something that had been put in my head by a lot of people and I actually found it hard to focus when lectures started. It was mostly because I wasn’t able to grasp the things that were being taught. So one day, I told my dad that I didn’t want to do the Diploma program anymore and that I’ll take JAMB again and apply for Mass Communication in another university.

Mind you, the Diploma was supposed to be for two years and then, if you passed the exams, you’d proceed to 200 level. I took a huge risk by leaving the program ‘cos what if I didn’t gain admission? I had nothing to fall back to. God was on my side tho’ because I wrote my JAMB, passed and got into the University.

Dazz how star do 😂

Later, I heard that the Law program had not been accredited at UNIPORT meaning that if I’d stayed for two whole years and passed the exams, I’d have been handed a Diploma certificate and would have been told to go my merry way. I think it’s been accredited now tho’. I’m not entirely sure.

Now that I look back at things, I’m actually grateful that I didn’t gain admission that year. What if I’d gotten into UNILAG to study Law? Would I have liked it? Maybe, maybe not. Would I have been happy? Who knows? But one thing I know for sure is that the year I thought was a year of disappointment had a lot of blessings for me because I learned a lot. I’m computer literate 😌, I know that Law is not for everyone 😂, I can cook 😁 and I was mentally prepared for the University life because I matured a bit in that year. I felt bad ‘cos I lost a year but I gained much more. I realized that nobody’s ahead of me and I’m working at my own pace. I also realized that every single thing happens for a reason.

I changed my mindset and I was able to help myself. Anybody can.

Love,

‘Ruona ❤️

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